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"All shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well.” --Julian of Norwich
When we allow worry to come front and center in our lives, we are displacing the present moment and trying to live in the future. It is a futile effort. All we have, all we ever know, is the moment we are experiencing right now. Words like “tomorrow” and “yesterday” are abstractions and useful to tell a story, but they are never something we experience. We are always in the Now.
We often live as if we are supposed to be ahead of ourselves, doing more, being more, and someday we’ll have time to sit back and become aware of what is going on around us. Of course, that isn’t what happens. Instead, we keep on racing to get somewhere we think we have to be. Once we get there, we tell ourselves, then we’ll be successful. Then we’ll have achieved something worthwhile, whether our goal is money, status, physical perfection, or expertise in the field of our choice. Those goals do have value–but not if we achieve them by missing life, by letting it pass by unnoticed.
There is a quote I take to heart: “Life is an infinite series of probabilities” from Jane Robert’s book The Nature of Reality. What it means is that every moment leads into another, but each moment is total unto itself. Each instant of time gives us — if we are open to it — awareness of our absolute being-ness and of the intricate, remarkable choreography that shapes our lives.
Consider this as an example: If you start to leave your house and almost open the front door, but then go back to get your keys, that means you will open the door two minutes later than you intended. The whole world has changed by then. Nothing is what it was two minutes before. The wind blows against the leaves of the trees in different ways. The cars passing by are not the same. The sky has more clouds than it had two minutes before, or fewer. The light from the sun has become brighter or it has dimmed. You have changed as well. Your body has carried out a billion processes in that time, each cell shifting and moving and creating more of itself. Your emotions have changed, a physiological fact, but in a natural way, feelings that flow in rhythm with who you are and the day itself.
Each moment of life is the result of a new probability, meant to be acknowledged and noticed for its own sake. This is what we are here for, to feel ourselves present in our life and to know that no two moments are the same, but each one holds the essence of who we are and what we have become and will become.
What happens to all this if you are worried and decide to stay worried? The worry dominates. Everything else is pushed aside. Your worrying accomplishes nothing, does not add an iota of value. It diminishes your energy, your will to take action, your ability to think clearly, and your ability to appreciate life in each moment. It prevents peace of mind and hurts the heart.
Some call worry a kind of half-death, because while you are immersed in it, you are in a stasis that is a partial paralysis of living and being.
Worry comes to us all, but we have a choice — to yield to it, or to take action in some way that mitigates it, that benefits us and the people around us. We decide not to give ourselves up to the worrying. We let it, not life, go past.
That is when we find that solutions come to us, often remarkable solutions, for we have allowed the awareness of our creative purpose in each moment.
The two-minute video above was taken in 1894. There are three separate clips that show when you tap the picture. It is unique in being rare and old footage of Native Americans drumming and dancing, accessing the drumbeat of the earth. It is also a testament to the lingering intricacy and total culture and traditions of a people who, by then, had faced near genocide in America by white settlers.
Each individual wears clothing symbolic of their way of life and for the purpose of the dance. Each one has preserved traditions that had existed for centuries, millennia even. This culture, now almost obliterated, is still treated with bigotry and persecution, four hundred years after the Pilgrims landed and stepped into the American wilderness, a landscape that did not belong to them.
It was not a shining hour for the European invaders — it was a travesty against life. One has to ask why. And no answer comes.
But one of my greatest heroes, Dr. Jane Goodall, was asked how she could feel hope in the midst of what was described as the planet’s race to annihilate itself, much of which she has witnessed firsthand. Dr. Goodall said she finds the good, and focuses on that. It is what gives her strength, and energy, and trust in the universal truth — that whether we know it or not, we are meant to discover how to live in harmony and with compassion.
There are powerful forces in Native American culture. These forces come out of immense reverence for the earth, for all of Nature, and for the Great Spirit. Native American traditional drumming, some of which is sounded in the video, has always been a way to express this deep connection.
Our world has let go of this reverence, not only for the planet’s ecology, but for its inhabitants. What is to become of us if we let things stay this way?
We are each responsible for the answer to this. What drives us to care, or not to care? And if we do not care, do we understand why? It is vital that we do understand, for then we can change our perceptions, and see how to offer hope for our children and their children, onward into the future.
Not everyone wants or needs to be an activist. But everyone has the freedom to act in their own corner of the universe according to their values. It is a choice we always are free to make. So that is where our responsibility lies. Every thought we have, every word we speak, every action we carry out, helps shape this world into what it is and what it becomes.
Our heart — our physical heartbeat — is in direct synchronization with the pulsing — the drumbeat of the earth. This has been scientifically measured. It is no accident. We sense this for ourselves when we walk barefoot in the grass. We feel it when we enter the natural world in silence. We know this when we listen to the sound of a thunderstorm. And a thousand other times, we know. It is a knowing that comes from being willing to live in harmony with the earth and with ourselves. It is a form of living in a state of grace.
Should we return to plant-based healing remedies, to aligning ourselves with what Nature has to show and give to us, or should we embrace modern pharmaceuticals as the only true source of fixing whatever is giving us distress and pain? There are so many ways of healing promised to us–how can we know?
When it comes to health, the answer is that the kind of care people want has a lot to do with their outlook on life. What they choose to do must align with their belief system. In essence, the choice they make is the best one — for them. Telling someone who is adamantly invested in modern western medical solutions that they should turn to herbal remedies is not likely to be persuasive.
Our health is governed not just by the physical symptoms we experience, it is directed by our minds and hearts. If people do not believe in something, it has far less capacity to benefit them.
Consider the placebo effect, usually dismissed by professional doctors as deceptive and useless. But is it? If someone believes they have taken a pill that will fix their sore throat and do not know it is just sugar, very likely it will heal their throat. If they believe the same pill is going to alleviate their allergies, it most often will.
What this tells us is that we are more in control of our health and well-being than we think. What our brain thinks is happening IS happening. Again, this is why staying with a method of health care that we believe in matters so much. We trust only what we choose to trust.
However, for millennia the remedies of choice came from plants and were administered by herbalists, usually women, and by indigenous shamans. Alas, both were shunned sometime in the late medieval period and a mostly male-derived health care system has developed over the last few hundred years. This system has always been heavily controlled, sidelining or denigrating all other health care modalities. Women lost all access to the healing processes that they had used for thousands of years. (A telling outcome around the fact that men took over medical treatment and denied the usefulness of herbs can be shown in the witch trials of the 17th century both in the U.S. and in other parts of the western world, attacks against women who, among other things, practiced the old healing remedies.)
Eventually this male-dominated new wave of medicine, which has evolved into using largely synthetic prescription medications, encouraged people to believe they needed treatment by professional physicians for even minor illnesses.
Well, does it really matter? If the medicine gets invented or is found in Nature, so what? The answer is that there are very good reasons to look at the matter of healing with more attention to the results that occur.
Nature, in fact, does everything better than we can. A plant has massive interconnected properties. When medical research isolates those properties, extracting just a few of them, they might be creating something useful, for a while. But it does not last long. Such extraction can often have side effects that cause severe, even lethal conditions for people. But in the societies familiar with the old remedies, the people creating the healing processes and mixtures used the whole plant or a major part of it, knowing the trace elements are also essential–it is the plant’s synthesis of all its elements that give it such intensive healing properties. Extracting only some of it does not offer healing of the whole system, just symptomatic relief.
But my purpose is not to persuade anyone to shift away from what they trust medically now. It is just to offer the possibility that there might be another way of seeing — and another way of healing.
This recent three-minute film is by someone whose work I know well. At the very least, Nick Polizzi suggests we can look more closely into ways to heal ourselves with greater inner calm, and with attention to what we are made of, for we are as much a part of this Earth as the plants that feed and can heal us.
I hope you enjoy it.
Each day I am aware of the things I love, be they ideas and thoughts, places I have been, or objects. Either they come into my mind in some fleeting way or I see them before me. One day I decided to write them down. The list began this way:
Other thoughts crowded in and other objects were noticed, so I began to write the list of what I loved in a stream-of-consciousness mode, just whatever came to mind, and ended up with this:
Maeshow, writing stories, working with people involved in the evolution of human consciousness, Renaissance and baroque music, William Byrd’s motet, Harry’s care, practicing Celtic harp, following old sci-fi movies, writing blog posts, Skype talk with friends, coffee shop with friends, podcasts with friends, QiGong, following wildlife groups, bougainvillea, the color indigo, hearing chimes, UFOs, reading mystery authors and other books, reading the Seth books and Edgar Cayce, experiencing the natural world, Shawangunk mountains, and prayer and attending to spirit, golden retrievers, wolves, conserving the earth, Jane Goodall’s writings, medieval herbalists, scribes in abbeys, illuminated manuscripts, prehistoric monoliths of Northumberland and Wiltshire, ancient bells of England, Old English words, Northern Cardinals, silence of snow falling, sparkly things…
There are more, and yet time seems to stretch and accommodate everything. I keep expanding the list. And recently I began collecting images of the list, some of which I show below. This, too, I am continuing to do.
What comes to mind most of all is that all these things bring a response in my heart — they are not transitory — they are aspects of this precious life given to me to know and encounter. It is their particular presence in my life from inner and outer journeys taken that makes their combination unique to me, a shaping force, if you will. Writing them down and gathering images of them brings a great peace of heart.
Each of us has such a unique list, both in words and in images that circumscribe who we are, a list of what we love.
What might such a list of your own look like–become? Do feel free to share any part of it in a comment below. It is in the sharing much of it comes to life.
It is human nature to let ourselves become fixed in certain patterns that can hold us back by constricting the heart, limiting what we are able or willing to feel and know. It is by changing these patterns that you can allow your heart to express fully and to give light and love to yourself and then out into the world.
Our tendency is to seek out patterns of safety and comfort and security, but in truth these are transient and fleeting, often mere shadows of what we had imagined they could offer to us. Their magic does not last long, for our discontent surfaces eventually.
Why the discontent? Part of the reason is that we are not made to remain static or unchanging. We are wired to be curious, to move beyond what we are. We are created with an insatiable curiosity to find answers, to experience life, and to allow the vulnerability of love.
The heart seeks love. The heart IS love. This gives it immense power.
There is scientific evidence that an electromagnetic field of energy operates in your heart just below your conscious awareness:
“The heart generates the largest electromagnetic field in the body. The electrical field as measured in an electrocardiogram (ECG) is about 60 times greater in amplitude than the brain waves recorded in an electroencephalogram (EEG). The magnetic component of the heart’s field, which is around 100 times stronger than that produced by the brain, is not impeded by tissues and can be measured several feet away from the body.” (HeartMath® Institute)
Imagine that kind of expansion, feel it extending out from your heart as you stand still in one place. That field informs you about what is going on around you every moment — and you can decipher those messages if you don’t react to emotions you feel but instead “listen” to the awareness that lies beneath them. If you remember that those emotions are as transient by their nature as the “fixed” patterns you cling to. If you are open to allowing that awareness of the heart’s field to speak to you.
You experience this electromagnetic field of the heart every day, every moment. It apprises you of the presence of others. Through it you intersect at the energy level, the electromagnetic level, and sense your connection with other human beings — it informs you of the true nature of that connection.
The thought of changing our ways and beliefs — our fixed patterns — can frighten us, and some of us would do anything to prevent whatever we think that change means or could bring. We feel threatened by it. Yet if we yield to that fear we begin to close down the heart and attempt to shut down its expanded field, to retreat from connection and communication with others who do not share our “safe” patterns.
Yet even that does not really work. Eventually, all things change. And that is the conundrum — as humans we seek security and predictability, but as humans, it is the last thing we are capable of sustaining.
We are always, in the present moment, in the midst of change that appears in the next moment, and the next, and the next. It is life. It is the heart of life. We are meant to live within that awareness.
Look out at the world around you, the world you apparently can detect through your five senses — the table, the street, the sound of a car passing by, a leaf falling from a tree, a voice calling out nearby, a blue vase on a windowsill, a letter or email you receive, a train’s whistle in the night — and a million more such things that come before us, that we think are real. But they are not real in the way we believe.
For a long time now quantum science has opened for us the scientific fact that we have no proof of this world’s existence without our consciousness of it. We actually have no proof, scientifically, of what exists beyond our physical eyes — they are but translators to the brain of data that apparently (and unproven) exists in time and space at a particular frequency. In physical terms, if we shift the frequency, what we “see” changes, which could account for access to alternate states. Then, physiologically, the brain reconstructs what we think we see based on only partial information. Imagine how absolutely individualized that process must be for every human being!
What we do see without question are representations of our inner consciousness, states of mind that we have created ourselves and expressed through our reactions to the world and everything in it. We may share these states with others, but they can change on the instant. People interpret what they see according to what they want to see, even if that wanting is subconscious and they are unaware of its inner origin and effect. Since 95% of our perception is subconscious, we can pretty well be assured we aren’t getting the whole picture about our own consciousness — unless we decide to become more aware of how our inner self sees.
The quickest way to become aware is noting what happens around you if you feel sad, angry or emotionally upset in any way, or by contrast, feel at peace, happy, and content. What is the state of the world you see then? Always, it reflects your state of consciousness, which changes constantly. But if certain emotions stay front and center, then your world collapses into the expression of those emotions. If you feel angry for an extended period of time, the outcome can be volatile in expression and engage you with inner suffering. If you feel gladness and joy for an extended period of time, your world expands and embraces all around you with compassion, tolerance, and love. You are the decider. Your world is the one you create.
Thus, if we create heart consciousness — if we cultivate compassion — we can begin to change the world — a world our headlines tell us has need of us in this way. We are so much more than we have conceived through our five senses until now. There is so much more within us to discover.
And each step towards this inner awareness and heart consciousness changes what we see, and therefore, what the world becomes.
Where we put our attention determines the quality of our life. What occupies your thoughts most of the time? Do you know where you are going with these thoughts? Or are you looking in all directions for some sign of what’s going on?
We live in a world changed by the discoveries of quantum physics, that is, by the realization that our consciousness exists before anything else can come into being. Indeed, it is our consciousness that drives our actions to manifest material reality.
Three forms of consciousness exist: There is our everyday alert thinking process, there is our subconscious mind, and there is the deep, ineffable consciousness that is God–All That Is embedded in and directing the vast, mysterious, extraordinary universe of which we are a part, and beyond.
We give attention to each form in very different ways.
You know your everyday thoughts, the ones that pull and push at you. You know how to focus on a task at hand, or how to multi-task if you need to. You know what you spend too much time doing, whether that is using electronic devices or procrastinating or dwelling on negative thoughts. You also know the times when you experience love and joy and beauty all around you and give your attention there. But have you noticed that you have chosen–always–whatever thoughts and feelings you have?
Thus, you choose your everyday conscious state of mind, every time, every moment. You also choose to keep it for a long or brief period, according to what motivates you practically, emotionally, and mentally to move forward or to stay where you are day to day.
The subconscious mind is different. Cognitive neuroscientists have demonstrated that the subconscious mind controls 95% of our thoughts–meaning we are unaware of 95% of what is going on in us, in our minds, driving our behavior. A familiar way to describe and explain this is to ask yourself why you are doing or thinking something, anything at all. There is a quick surface answer that comes to mind, yes, but is it the whole story?
Not by a long shot. Try this exercise–write down a thought you have and why you have it. Ask (and write down) why you answered the way you did. Now ask why you answered the way you did the second time and repeat the process, writing down why you answered the way you did each time. When you have no more answers, you are probably very close to knowing the true reason you had the thought in the first place–you have gone into your subconscious to find out, and in the process of doing that, you are able to see beneath the everyday camouflage to the truth. This can often cause a shift in you that changes some aspect of your life in a positive way. Here is a short example of what I mean:
Thought: I am not good enough.
Why? I have not succeeded as I had hoped.
Why? Others were chosen over me at work.
Why? My boss doesn’t like me.
Why? I don’t always do what he wants.
Why? I hate my job.
Why? It isn’t what I wanted to do.
Why? I needed money so I took it, but I wanted to be a singer.
Why? Because that is where my heart is.
Why? Because that is who I really am.
The third state of consciousness is the ineffable awareness and union with God. In this state, everything is answered. It is reached sometimes in meditation, or during peak moments in life, epiphanies, wherein for a split second, or sometimes longer, we sense the absolute power of God, aware we are not separate from the Love that is God. Sometimes, if and when we are willing, we know this state. Most often it happens in Nature, or in hearing an exquisite passage from a piece of music, or watching the joyful play of a child. We know when it happens, for it feels for a moment in our heart as if we have come home.
So I would ask again–what receives your attention?
As the wonderful French philosopher and priest Teilhard de Chardin said, “We are spiritual beings having a human experience.”
You are included in that. We all are. No matter how we see ourselves in this moment, the truth is we are at our center made of star stuff, our origins existing in and beyond the starlight.
One way to see what a massive miracle you are is to realize that human beings have lived on the planet just a few seconds in geologic time, yet each day you are presented anew with this precious world to experience, discover, and know. You could say you are earthbound stars experiencing this curious physical existence, figuring out how to move forward, how to identify who you are and what your work is, and how you can do it.
The answers are all around you. However long you live your life, it is a life held in unconditional love, something our five senses and worried emotions often hide from us. This never changes. If you stop for a moment, just one moment, and feel the presence of such love, you are forever changed.
So why is this not our common state? Why instead is there angst, despair, deep worry, anger, fear?
Life is a process in which you are meant to do the work most central to your inner self, where true knowing exists. Another way of saying this is that we are meant to leave it to God, and to extend ourselves in service to the ideal of that spiritual connection. We always know when we have done that, for we feel happy and fulfilled, no matter what that work may be.
In the Psalms it is written:
Be Still and Know I am God
Say that in that moment when you stop, if you decide to allow that moment to happen. Do this often during the day. Nothing will be the same.
In ancient times when the sun set on the Winter Solstice, creating the entrance into the longest night of the year, rituals and prayers were given in awe to honor the light and prepare for the darkness that followed. At a heart level the people had no certainty the sun would rise again, and when it did the next morning, it was a cause for immense celebration, for the sun was the source of life.
Now we know it will rise. We seldom take time to feel awe. The natural world continues without much of our attention. Yet it is the natural world that sustains us, not our technology, not our hectic pace, not our politics or money or wanting of this or that.
In our own corner of the Universe we are given a bounty beyond measure. In the sound of the wind, in the call of a bird, in the fleeting sight of an animal crossing a meadow, in a child’s laugh, we are in a sacred place whether we acknowledge it or not.
On this particular day, as the sun sets, take note of it, if you will. Stop whatever you are doing and thinking for just a moment, and give thanks to the sun, a prayer for its return, and a welcoming of the long night with the anticipation and hope for a new day.
In this way we align with the ancient ones who understood we are not separate from the natural world, but in our own corner of the Universe we are embedded in it, a part of the whole, an abiding and deep and vital part of All That Is.